A Hungry Heart

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What was that terrible sound?
Have been looking for it around for awhile but,
I just cant find it..

Oh!
No, it was coming from... myself?
My heart?
Is it.. growling?

Why heart, why are you growling?
Are you starving?
Wanna eat something?
Oh, love? Yes, love!
Gonna serve you fast! Big ones!


....aren't I crazy? whatever, I MISS YOU LIKE HELL,SUGAR! feel like running to your arms immediately :((

What's in a Name?

Sorry for the late update, you see, twitter's taking over my life, so are exams. It's been a very busy week, a busy month lately.

I don't know what am I supposed to call this post.... but if it's getting too boring for you, you can leave, I don't mind :)

I hate my name. The whole of it. I mean, Istina sounds ridiculous. If I say my name to fast, people will like, "Huh, sorry? Did you just say Christina?" Well helloooooooo it's Istina. And I ain't a dangdut singer. Nor background dancer. I really hate the idea of combining the name of my pops and mum's; why Istina? can't you find anything cooler than it?

And Dwi makes it double. Double trouble. Yes, I hate it how it sounds, I hate it how many people use it too. I hate it because it become my nickname, I hate it because people with same name of mine are mostly boys.... or mid-aged men. And Prameswari? I find it okay yet I didn't know what was that mean.

Then I know, Istina came from Yugoslavian word... Thanks to Ferinda for letting me know :) Yes, Istina means truth. I found it's like a curse, I can't lie. I mean, the truth's written all over my face if I tell a lie. I can tell a lie, but you can tell I'm telling a lie. Dang. So I'd rather tell everything straight. Without lies.

But Dwi........... still cant find any better reason to love it but the name of my very own bloke's nearly the same as mine :DD and I love it how our names kinda connected, ha-ha!

I try to receive as much as I try to get. Since this is my name and I'll bring it until the death kiss my life away, I shall take it. At what cost. And Istina Dwi Prameswari never sounds as good as now!

Ate mais :)

Breaking News!

Do you remember about the competition I mentioned before? And here's the result :

First place at Bazkom's Modern Dance Competition, and this is for you Utha, dedicated to you only :)

Happy First Anniversary!

as today's November 16th, it's already a year since I firstly introduced to you as the owner of this blog. I thank you all my loyal readers because without you, I probably wont keep writing on this. Just wishing you all have a very hot midsummer sunshine in your heart! Keep shining! :)

Kalau

kelam bisa bicara,
laut tak hanya membisu,
dan desau angin dapat menjerit,

hanya satu kata yang terungkap,
"Benci."




...........I'm so lack of idea for making Indonesian poem assignment, help! ;(

For Those Who I Wanna Tell Something..

Write 15 things that you want to say to 15 different people, one for each. It could be a confession, an opinion, a thought, anything. However, you can't write something you already confessed or something you already said, it has to be something new. Tell them which is whom if you want to, but you don't have to.

In this post (in random order) : Widi Prahatikno, Bisma Aditya, Hartini Soraya, Radian Drihadian, Dina Stephanie Anastasya, Ferinda Partiningrum Lestari, Andika Chaktiaji Zulfiqar, Alessandra Syukrika, Ardelia Apti, Lupita Ardhyaningrum, Nurul Fitria Lubis, Dimico Ardan Syah Rediga, Hafiz Heryansyah, Serra Annisa, Laksmana Gusti Handoko

1. "You've been a good 'brother' for me, though time never let us to be an item, I'm glad you've always been a good bestfriend because that's how I want you to be."
2. "I like your fashion sense and your skinny body make it double"
3. "Thanks for meeting us, matey! Sometimes it feels like shit for a moment but I'm happy and that's important. I love you and you'll always be the first one I would run to and cry if I face troubles"
4. "You should be a tattoo artist instead of a doctor or join an emo band :3 of course I'm just kidding."
5. "Dont you know that I used to stare a lot at you? I always think you're pretty and unlike typical kinda girl. I even envy your blonde hair!"
6. "Let the past be the past. Never let past trap us not to move on, we're growing up, dude."
7. "I feel comfortable around you. I always be myself when I'm next to you and doing crazy things and singing crazy songs with you is fun because you wont mind!
8. "Fussing and fighting are okay, but everything has to be alright before we go to sleep. All I wanna say is "Thank you". Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! And, "I'm sorry, I love you. Damn much 'till it hurts.""
9. "I would like to know more about you, and I miss how we used to be. I wanna chat everything, especially about love stuff and things we've missed, no less."
10. "We are cool and we've made several attempts, though we can still find gap in our so-called friendship. Looking forward for the old you when we used to talk a lot about things without any shame, woof woof :)"
11. "I'd like to stay in this position, like, half a year more? Then off you go to Bandung then me, myself, to Salemba. Wish you so much good luck, you're the best!"
12. "Buy me a ticket there then I'll fly to you, just to hug you. It's been awhile since I literally goof around with you"
13. "If only I have a brain like you have :s"
14. "Without you, I'm nothing. Letting me catch up with your friends and socialize with 'em.. I do like you! Play liebestraume for me!"
15. "You're very attractive though you may not realize it. I wish I have your long wavy hair and half of your hotness! :D"

taken from Nunu Fithria's blog

Morning,

I'm tired of crying myself out loud to sleep
and waking up with black circle under my eyes
and the feeling of not having you at all :'((